Which is better, to reject and refuse negativity, or to explore difficult emotions?

Tears for those who yearn for liberation © 2013 Rose-Lynn Fisher

Great Healers often say you should strongly and fully reject and repel negativity, negative people, the shadow and the darkness. Modern-day psychotherapy says that it’s only by fully exploring and acknowledging the darkness inside us that we can be fully integrated human beings. What do you think?

Star Spread: How do I know I have Permission?

Warning: Adult Content, y’all.

How do I know I have permission to succeed and feel fulfilled? Because of course I do have permission, I only need to get out of my own way. So in many ways the spread should be titled: “How do I get out of my own way, already?”

This spread is in Tom Benjamin’s book Tarot on Earth, which I just finished it this morning. It’s an Elemental Dignities spread, where you see how the Element of the card conflicts or complements the Element of the position. I like that. Tom also says that just because two elements clash according to conventional ED theory, it doesn’t actually mean they clash in reality, and can work together rilly well. Take Fire and Water: How you gonna get yourself in a nice hot bath if you don’t heat it up? But then I wonder if conflicting Elements are another case of “The Death Card Doesn’t Always Mean Death, Until of Course it Does”? Sigh. Here we are back at the reason I bought that book in the first place: to learn to use my intuition in a reading, instead of what I have learned empirically.

Speaking of which, let’s crack on and do this bad boy, shall we? What imma gonna do is a kind of hybrid visual language meets learned meanings. Hang on to your ovaries, it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

Card Interpretation
Spirit: Spare Card. Aha! The Tarot is in cahoots with my Higher Self and saying you can't have that information now. I kind of love it when that happens – which is why I always leave the spare cards in the deck. “Check back later friend.”
Water: Tower. Ben Says that this is actually a lot more like a phallic symbol than a nuclear explosion taking place all over your shit. As this is in the Water aspect of my spread and it's a hard-hitting Fire card I'd say it looks like some jerk just came all over my favourite black shantung blouse. If only I had a black shantung blouse. But actually you know it's about how my emotions just explode everywhere and take me back to ground zero. Looking for equanimity? It's a long way to the top if you want to rock'n'roll.
Fire: Hierophant. My passion is teaching apparently. The only thing is that I'm a Gemini so basically that whole Taurus vibe (Hierophant is Taurus) is a little s-l-o-w for me. Perhaps if I can see the long view that’s how I get to the place I want to be.
Air: Queen of Coins. I kind of despise my own materialism and wanting to succeed. My inner critic basically rules my inner roost. Just look at the way she's glaring at that Spirit position card.
Earth: 8 of Coins. OK good at least here I know I'm on the right track. Here the 8 of Coins looks like a field with flowers in it which is also a back-burner plan of mine. As this is the only card that is aligned with it's positional element and the only Pip to boot (what I feel I can do for myself) maybe this is the clue I've been waiting for.
Topics: There are a lot of Majors here. I seem to think that this situation is kind of out of my grasp and the signifier is the grasping old Queen of Coins. The only pip is the 8 of Coins and I guess that means that I know I'm on the right path.
Overall: So how DO I get out of my own way? I think I have to get over my fear of material success and align myself with a very Taurean view of the future.

Did the reading answer the question? What would you have done differently? Thoughts?

Court Cards – you can’t live with them and you can’t shoot them.

A lot of people have a big fat problem when it comes to Court Cards in the Tarot. As a Tarot teacher I usually advise my students to match each Court Card profile to a person they know, a celebrity, a character from a book or a film. That way, you get to know the Court Cards as individual personalities, which I think makes it a whole lot easier to relate to them and understand what they mean if / when they pop up in a reading. I made a series of YouTube videos and you can watch them via the link on my website HERE.

As you know if you read my post about the Tarot blogs I follow, one of my favourite Tarot writers is Kate, the Daily Tarot Girl. Her latest post was as usual hilarious, irreverent and a strong blast of insight into the Tarot. So if you have ishuze with the Court Cards, I strongly suggest you hop on over to her blog, have a good laugh and never worry about those pesky little buggers ever again. Check it out HERE.

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Tarot de Jacques Vieville from Editions Sivilixi

At the moment I’m reading Tarot on Earth by Tom Benjamin because I want to expand my skills and learn to read the cards using the visual language of the Marseille deck, instead of all the card meanings I learned from books. In order to practice this skill / technique, I need some kind volunteers. So I am offering three free 3-Card readings, in exchange for feedback. This is on a first-come, first-severed basis.  Remember that I am still at a totally experimental level with this, so who knows what could happen? But as with everything Tarot-related, expect the unexpected.  Use the contact form below:

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Metaphysical reasons for injury and illness

I cut my hand with a knife two weeks ago. I was cutting a tomato. I won’t give you the very gory details, but I should have gone to hospital and had stitches. I healed myself with Hypericum 30c homoeopathy, three times a day for 3 days, and lavender EO applied undiluted directly into the wound 5 times a day for 10 days. Now the skin is totally healed but I’m going to have an impressive dent in that place for at least a few months. Above is a picture I made about how I feel about all of that.

I have spent a lot of time trying to work out how that happened, apart from sheer distractedness and clumsiness, and so far I still have nothing but questions:

  • Why do I want to hurt myself?
  • What is the significance of that particular spot?
  • Why my left hand? In many ways, it looks like I made myself a second yoni in my Yin hand.
  • Looking at some charts of hand reflexology, the spot I cut myself on is related to eyes. So as you know, I’m working on developing Medical Intuition, and as I am a hands-on healer, or rather a hands-off healer as I hardly ever touch, I might have opened myself a healing eye in my hand.
  • Looking at acupressure charts (see below) that spot is related to lungs. I feel like there is really nothing wrong with my lungs, however. I’ve just had a chest X-ray and it was clear.
Hand Reflexology chart from handreflexologycharts.com

I know that there are a few books on the topic of metaphysical causes of physical complaints, a couple of which I’ve read. To be honest, I feel as though telling someone they have some symptom like cancer or a broken pelvis because of some inability or cause within themselves feels a lot like blame. I know, as a Tarot card reader, I’m obviously a symbol reader, and as a healer I see causes of illnesses, or at least I know what they are and I understand it all, and basically agree with how it works. Still, it’s all very weird and confusing. I mean, it could be that I simply cut my hand and just leave it at that without having to complicate things searching for any deeper reasons. And maybe, like almost everything in my life right now, there is probably no way of knowing for sure why any of it is happening. However, if anyone has any thoughts, insights or similar experiences, please share.

Oh Lord It’s Rough On This Road

Yes, I am now currently on the road less travelled, and as Kid President says: “And it hurt, man!” but I think it’s ok to lose your shit from time to time. I really feel like when you need to break down you should go ahead and do it, do it like a PRO. Luckily, we all have Tarot in our lives, whether we know it or not.

Today, my card was 7 of Swords, the card of the Hot Steppin’ Murrrderer! Everyone thinks this one is so sly, such a shady number. But often that’s just what you think about yourself. You think you’re the sneaky one and the cheat. Negative self-talk is a tricky one because on one hand, we all need an inner policeman, but on the other, we guard ourselves too much it filters out too much of the ability to expand.

The 7 of Swords is a spy. But a spy never gets the recognition for what he or she does. Just look at James Bond, taking a grilling from M, for example. It takes a lot of work to train to be a spy – look at Black Widow. She doesn’t actually have any superpowers but she is the one that keeps all those other dudes together, she’s the lynchpin.

7 of Swords is just a short step away from the 8 of Swords and that’s a place you really don’t want to go! 7 of Swords says you’re actually going at this with a pneumatic drill when a feather would be better. You need to enjoy your road more, sweetness. You’re doing great. Encourage yourself. It’s rough on this road.

The Identity Ritual

As you already know by now, I’m a massive, massive fan of the Gallery of Magick and so naturally I subscribe to their newsletter. This beautiful thing appeared in my inbox today and I read the whole thing through in one gulp. I am certain to do this ritual in the next few days, and if you are also tempted please share your results below, as I will be doing too, very soon no doubt. Read the whole post on the GoM site HERE or click the picture above..

 

Oils4Life

What a beautiful, deep, subtle, refreshing rose scent this is. I usually use Oils4Life for essential oils as their quality is very fine, the selection is great, the prices are very reasonable and they deliver so fast it’s as if they had biked it round themselves, all the way from Norfolk to Yokosuka. Top notch! Find out about them HERE.

Handbook of SHEN

In mitigation, I didn’t actually buy this book, my sister gave it to me as it’s my birthday today. However, we agreed that we would both read it and so eventually we will be able to do treatments on each other. As I’m already a certified TFH Kinesiology practitioner and a Reiki Master Teacher, SHEN slides in nicely to my skill set, don’t you think? It’s also going to be an excellent partner therapy to this humungous door stopper, which I did actually buy myself:

I’m certainly going to need physical therapy after carting that phone book around for the duration. Still, so much to look forward to this year. A happy birthday indeed.

Read more about SHEN Therapy HERE. Find out more about TFH Kinesiology and Matthew Thie, my teacher, HERE. Find out about the healing I do by clicking the link in the menu.

Robert Moss’ Dreamgates

The other day a co-worker recommended I read Huckleberry Finn, and I said: “Oh, yes, what a good idea” and ran out of the room screaming inwardly. If only he knew what my to-read book pile looks like, or just how fantastic it is.

The books to which I so desperately cleave

For example, today I went on a delightful picnic with Mr. T in Nango Park Hayama and he went off to walk Star the dog (after whom this site is dedicated) meanwhile I was relaxing in the log grass reading the above. The weather was perfect, there were actual butterflies of several different types fluttering around with very loud and delightful bird-song and not a single person came by. It was all totally idyllic. Maybe that’s why I almost had tears in my eyes as I read the above. Anthropology, shamanism, journeying, dreaming, healing, you could say it’s got it all. Plus which Robert Moss has a couple of cracking websites with newsletters you can subscribe to HERE and HERE.

PS: You know at the beginning of this post I mentioned Huckleberry Finn? The top post at the moment on Moss’ blogspot blog which I linked to above is about Mark Twain. I’m totally serious.

Odilon Redon Exhibition Tokyo

Image: Odilon Redon Mystical Conversation c. 1896 oil on canvas. Image from curator.com.

I went to the last day (sorry, folks!) of the Odilon Redon exhibition in Tokyo. Art historians complain that Redon famously left very few writings on his work. He said that each work should be experienced by the individual differently from other people. Also, that each painting might elicit a different emotional response on different occasions. He wanted his work to allow the viewer to experience the neumatic, what can only be sensed by the soul and cannot be spoken; he wished for his Art to be experienced as a doorway or access to a higher spiritual truth or alternate spiritual dimension. It’s so much like Tarot. Which card do you think the painting above could be? I wonder that there isn’t an Odilon Redon deck, as we have Klimt and Blake decks. Check out other Odilon Redon paintings. What Tarot cards do they represent for you?

Other Tarot Blogs I Love

Two Sides Tarot showing Lioness Oracle Tarot.

I was thinking about just how cool and groovy (yes people still say that) my blog is and thinking I wonder who else is out there in the Tarot blog world that’s sassy and classy (yes they say that also) like me. So I had a little hunt around and found this collection of amazing people.

Camelia Elias

Insightful, masterful, no bullshit, eloquent. Tarot, magic and more.

Mystic Medusa

Basically an Astro blog, but oh my gosh! So insightful and accurate you’ll think she’s been stalking you! Tons of Tarot goodness also.

Daily Tarot Girl

Oh my gosh there is sooo much to read on this blog – great if you have a good few hours on a train. I really liked her Guilty Pleasures post. I wanted to add my ha’penny’s worth but I think the comments were closed. Very funny and cool lady.

Tarot Thrones

All about the Courts. People do actually freak out when you say: “Ok it’s time to learn the Courts”. Still no idea why, IMHO they are much easier to interpret than some of the Majors – yes, Wheel of Fortune, Justice and High Priestess, I’m looking at you! But about Tarot Thrones, it’s not about the GoT deck that came out recently, but still a very enjoyable and thought-provoking read and very helpful and grounding when it comes to the Courts.

Little Red Tarot

This one has the most amazing shop. They have all the decks I have my eye on, and some I’ve never seen before that have jumped on to the queue. The writing is smart and sharp and there is tons to peruse and enjoy.

Little Fox Tarot

This is by far the most stylish of them all. She has a Tarot mixtape made by Theresa Reed and an interview with Rachel Pollack. All you need to know, really.

Two SidesTarot

A great selection of articles and interviews for new readers and advanced. Also some really awesome decks.

Kelly-Ann Maddox

So many freebies to enjoy and so much insight into the Tarot. Highly recommended.

And now it’s your turn! What Tarot blogs do you enjoy? Write your favourites in the box below.