Wounded Healer

Peleus entrusts his son Achilles to Chiron. Source: Wikicommons.

Jung said that in order to be a true healer one has to be wounded oneself. I read the article about that on Wikipedia (see it HERE) and they state that:

“73.9% of counselors and psychotherapists have experienced one or more wounding experiences leading to career choice.”

Is there an adult alive over the age of 40 who had never had a wounding experience? I only wish that more adults had the same caring urge as therapists and healers.

Also I strongly believe that you can’t be an effective healer if you haven’t really lived pain, in whatever form. How would you be able to understand what the other is feeling without having been down that hole yourself?

I have Chiron in my 10th house which I fancy means I’m seen as a healer, whereas other Astrologers have said that it’s the wound that defines me. Huh. Let’s see what the Tarot thinks:

Tarot de Jacques Viéville

And as usual from the Tarot: what elegance, what subtlety in this answer. The central card – 2 of Wands – is the card of yearning and urges without sense or foundation. The left-hand card is the 10 of Wands, someone who has fought and lost or at least fought and suffered. On the right is the 5 of Disks, someone who is outside society, who struggles with paranoia and feeling ostracised.

I yearn to be a full-time healer, and behind me is the experience of having healed myself from Crohn’s disease – find out about all of that HERE – which was probably the catalyst for my wanting to be a healer, and before me is still this feeling of never being able to be accepted or successful. So the Tarot says that it’s the wound that defines me. Not exactly the answer I wanted but certainly very enlightening.

But also we could see something more general, an urge to heal coming from and feeding back into difficulty and stress. So then, I’m both seen as a Healer and define myself as wounded because the two are the same for me.

What do you think? What brought on your urge to heal? Do you agree with my Tarot reading interpretation? Can young people with no real life experience heal? Start the conversation below.

Star Spread: How do I know I have Permission?

Warning: Adult Content, y’all.

How do I know I have permission to succeed and feel fulfilled? Because of course I do have permission, I only need to get out of my own way. So in many ways the spread should be titled: “How do I get out of my own way, already?”

This spread is in Tom Benjamin’s book Tarot on Earth, which I just finished it this morning. It’s an Elemental Dignities spread, where you see how the Element of the card conflicts or complements the Element of the position. I like that. Tom also says that just because two elements clash according to conventional ED theory, it doesn’t actually mean they clash in reality, and can work together rilly well. Take Fire and Water: How you gonna get yourself in a nice hot bath if you don’t heat it up? But then I wonder if conflicting Elements are another case of “The Death Card Doesn’t Always Mean Death, Until of Course it Does”? Sigh. Here we are back at the reason I bought that book in the first place: to learn to use my intuition in a reading, instead of what I have learned empirically.

Speaking of which, let’s crack on and do this bad boy, shall we? What imma gonna do is a kind of hybrid visual language meets learned meanings. Hang on to your ovaries, it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

Card Interpretation
Spirit: Spare Card. Aha! The Tarot is in cahoots with my Higher Self and saying you can't have that information now. I kind of love it when that happens – which is why I always leave the spare cards in the deck. “Check back later friend.”
Water: Tower. Ben Says that this is actually a lot more like a phallic symbol than a nuclear explosion taking place all over your shit. As this is in the Water aspect of my spread and it's a hard-hitting Fire card I'd say it looks like some jerk just came all over my favourite black shantung blouse. If only I had a black shantung blouse. But actually you know it's about how my emotions just explode everywhere and take me back to ground zero. Looking for equanimity? It's a long way to the top if you want to rock'n'roll.
Fire: Hierophant. My passion is teaching apparently. The only thing is that I'm a Gemini so basically that whole Taurus vibe (Hierophant is Taurus) is a little s-l-o-w for me. Perhaps if I can see the long view that’s how I get to the place I want to be.
Air: Queen of Coins. I kind of despise my own materialism and wanting to succeed. My inner critic basically rules my inner roost. Just look at the way she's glaring at that Spirit position card.
Earth: 8 of Coins. OK good at least here I know I'm on the right track. Here the 8 of Coins looks like a field with flowers in it which is also a back-burner plan of mine. As this is the only card that is aligned with it's positional element and the only Pip to boot (what I feel I can do for myself) maybe this is the clue I've been waiting for.
Topics: There are a lot of Majors here. I seem to think that this situation is kind of out of my grasp and the signifier is the grasping old Queen of Coins. The only pip is the 8 of Coins and I guess that means that I know I'm on the right path.
Overall: So how DO I get out of my own way? I think I have to get over my fear of material success and align myself with a very Taurean view of the future.

Did the reading answer the question? What would you have done differently? Thoughts?

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Tarot de Jacques Vieville from Editions Sivilixi

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