Star Spread: How do I know I have Permission?

Warning: Adult Content, y’all.

How do I know I have permission to succeed and feel fulfilled? Because of course I do have permission, I only need to get out of my own way. So in many ways the spread should be titled: “How do I get out of my own way, already?”

This spread is in Tom Benjamin’s book Tarot on Earth, which I just finished it this morning. It’s an Elemental Dignities spread, where you see how the Element of the card conflicts or complements the Element of the position. I like that. Tom also says that just because two elements clash according to conventional ED theory, it doesn’t actually mean they clash in reality, and can work together rilly well. Take Fire and Water: How you gonna get yourself in a nice hot bath if you don’t heat it up? But then I wonder if conflicting Elements are another case of “The Death Card Doesn’t Always Mean Death, Until of Course it Does”? Sigh. Here we are back at the reason I bought that book in the first place: to learn to use my intuition in a reading, instead of what I have learned empirically.

Speaking of which, let’s crack on and do this bad boy, shall we? What imma gonna do is a kind of hybrid visual language meets learned meanings. Hang on to your ovaries, it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

Card Interpretation
Spirit: Spare Card. Aha! The Tarot is in cahoots with my Higher Self and saying you can't have that information now. I kind of love it when that happens – which is why I always leave the spare cards in the deck. “Check back later friend.”
Water: Tower. Ben Says that this is actually a lot more like a phallic symbol than a nuclear explosion taking place all over your shit. As this is in the Water aspect of my spread and it's a hard-hitting Fire card I'd say it looks like some jerk just came all over my favourite black shantung blouse. If only I had a black shantung blouse. But actually you know it's about how my emotions just explode everywhere and take me back to ground zero. Looking for equanimity? It's a long way to the top if you want to rock'n'roll.
Fire: Hierophant. My passion is teaching apparently. The only thing is that I'm a Gemini so basically that whole Taurus vibe (Hierophant is Taurus) is a little s-l-o-w for me. Perhaps if I can see the long view that’s how I get to the place I want to be.
Air: Queen of Coins. I kind of despise my own materialism and wanting to succeed. My inner critic basically rules my inner roost. Just look at the way she's glaring at that Spirit position card.
Earth: 8 of Coins. OK good at least here I know I'm on the right track. Here the 8 of Coins looks like a field with flowers in it which is also a back-burner plan of mine. As this is the only card that is aligned with it's positional element and the only Pip to boot (what I feel I can do for myself) maybe this is the clue I've been waiting for.
Topics: There are a lot of Majors here. I seem to think that this situation is kind of out of my grasp and the signifier is the grasping old Queen of Coins. The only pip is the 8 of Coins and I guess that means that I know I'm on the right path.
Overall: So how DO I get out of my own way? I think I have to get over my fear of material success and align myself with a very Taurean view of the future.

Did the reading answer the question? What would you have done differently? Thoughts?

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Tarot de Jacques Vieville from Editions Sivilixi

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Just Look at the Darn Cards, Will Ya?

Maman Miyuki’s Tarot de Marseille

Reading through Tom Benjamin’s Tarot on Earth ahead of next month’s Tokyo Tarot Book Club Event, I’m excited to begin reading what I actually see on the table (or in this case bed) instead of what I know.

In this spread, I asked about the nature of the relationship with the people I work with. So what do we actually SEE?

The significator is the central card. We see people meeting face to face and two cups. But they are separated by some ornate stem flower in a red vase – the Yoni is in the room! Below is the world surrounded by a whole botanical garden of foliage and encased in more ornamentation than a German Rococo church. The little fishy-monsters are looking at each other but showing their teeth. So this spread is about socialising, or not, and the pressures of the world underlying the urge towards potential friendships.

On the left we see a lot of cups upside down. There are upset emotions and cups that are not charged. In the centre is a little blue flower with a red centre… another Yoni, but feeling cold, it seems.

On the right is the 9 of Coins. Money or plates are on the table, and the door is open, but there is something barring the way, another something, a mirror, a world,  or a face that is separate from the rest, in the middle but enclosed in a fancy wall. At the risk of becoming tiresome, it’s a Yoni wall!  The flower buds reach out top and bottom, so there is potential for events to unfold, but even though the roots of the flowers connect, there is nothing happening yet and one person is being kept separate from the others.

So we are seeing a disconnection of people based on the tight constraints of the world. The left side (female) feels upset and that the wine is being wasted. The right side (male) feels that the central face needs to be kept apart, but it’s difficult because that person is right in the midst of everyone.

A pretty bang-on description of what is going on at work currently, I’d say. And all I did was look at the darn cards. Thanks, Tom Benjamin. This is a seriously great tool.